Tuesday, September 30, 2008

Why I Write By Frank McCourt

I have always indulged myself in literature, and enjoy the power that pen on paper has.That is why I became an English teacher at Stuyvesant High School in New York; the job that makes me truly happy. I am writing because I feel a need that I have to. I believe it is my job to educate the youth of our future of the past that once was. I also believe I need to write it so that I don't forget my own strife in my own past. The mind slowly fades throughout time, and I don't want my life story with many messages to give, to die along with my mind.

It has been stated that I remember everything to extreme clarity. " His prose is so clear a reader can smell the raindrops." (O'Haire, Daily News). These memories may appear strong now, but they were stronger when the memories were younger in my past. They were as clear as a nickel back then,and a little time can hinder one's memories. The reason I write is so that people may gain strength through my pain and strife. I want people to truly indulge in life, and really take a moment to just pause their busy lives and be thankful for what they have. I want people to remember the suffering that my family and I had to endear, but also the strength and courage it also took to survive it. My story is about faith, courage, love, and spirit, and how others can truly help you pull through. There are so many messages that can be pulled from my life, and I hope that they affect people in the similar ways that they have affected me. My words of wisdom are there to encourage people to find their way out of the darkness, becasue I did. If I could make it out and have a bright future ahead of me, than I know this can be the same for others.
I also write for the sake of my family. I believe that throught their pain and sufferings, that they deserve to be remembered. My poor Mother went through so much pain and suffering, and I believe it is my duty to let her caring soul never be forgotten. In fact, I could not write this memoir until my mother passed away because it was just too painful for me to write about this. My mother and I did have some rocky times. I slapped her and made her cry when I drank my first pint, and I know that I forever hurt her feelings. I know how much I may have hurt her feelings, and I know that during this time of struggle, she did everything that she possibly could for us. I write for my family because thay should never be forgotten.
I write also to keep the past alive. I want people to know that this did happen, and that is wasn't a made up fictional event. It is very important that I keep the past a reality so that the one's who suffered tremendously and lost their lives are remembered as well. Losing siblings was a horrific and unbearable event, but also with keeping the past alive, I incorporated humor in my writing so that it was easier to bear emotionally. I also had the point of view as a young child, and my perception of events were different than if from an adult's. I sometimes laughed at things that were serious, but that is how people got by during the depression. I also wrote with certain devices such as parallelism and symbolism. I used parallelism in my writing to emphasize the negative affects of drinking on my father. I used this device because it strengthened the response I wanted to draw from my readers.
I also freely incorporated the Irish culture in my writing so that readers would feel the music tastes, dressing styles, and irish diction of the time where I lived. It makes the book feel so much more realistic when i used exact diction from the Irish culture. People did not speak well, they were under educated, and they spoke differently from how Americans spoke. I want my readers to truly experience the mood and feel as if they were right in Ireland! I also wanted my readers to experience the musicality stles of the Irish. I did this by reciting the words from numerous Irish jigs. " Anyone can see why I wanted your kiss,
It had to be and the reason is this
Could it be true, someone like you
Could love me, love me?" (McCourt, 23). I felt that music is a very important cultural element not only to the Irish, but also to set the mood and tone of the memoir. Many of these songs are jolly so people could be strong and live through their hardships. This particular song phrase is alos a from of parallelism that I incorporated in my memoir. Many times I referenced it when talking about the marriage between my mother and my father. Using certain elements like song stanzas and parallelism make my book very deep and moving. It also helps the reader feel like they are in Ireland right now as they read!
I write for many reasons. I love to write, and I enjoy expressing myself deeply. However, I write to keep my family forever remembered and also so that the past is kept alive and never broken. Most importantly, I write so that I can move my readers and bring them confidence and faith in themselves. I want people to know that your environment doesn't predestine your abilities in your future. That is why I write.

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

Angela's Ashes

There are certain novels that have the ability to emotionally move and captivate an audience, however, it is quite an accomplishment to write a marvelous piece of artwork that spans from the brink of truth. In Angela’s Ashes, one can acknowledge that there are immense amounts of pain, suffering, and agony through the words of Frank McCourt. We as readers experience the unbearable truths that he had enough strength in his heart to put his painful memories into memoir form to put into fruition this great novel. “ Poverty often deprives a man of all spirit and virtue; it is hard for an empty bag to stand upright.” Benjamin Franklin. This quote justifies the struggles the Mccourt family weathered throughout the course of their lives.
The McCourt family is a typical Irish family during the struggles of the late thirties and early forties. During this time there was a depression in Ireland and also much crop and financial difficulty. During this distressing time, both mother and father in this memoir are extremely poor, just struggling to keep bread on the table for their large family. As with many Irish men, the stress levels were increased and on account, and consequently, the father took to heavy liquor. Life in Ireland became so stressful to the point where he completely intoxicated himself. “ Go out Frankie, you shouldn’t see your Father like this. Stay on the playground” (29).
Father had so much stress upon his chest that he could not keep a job, and with the sparse change he acquired, he bought liquor to ease the pain. The entire family lived in immense poverty. They had barley any acquisitions, sustenance, or garments to keep the family well -cared for. A mother and father know their roles in society are to keep their children content and healthy. When they know they aren’t fulfilling their children’s needs, they feel helpless and full of failure. Poverty wrecked both parent’s lives, and bashed in both parent’s spirit and vigor for life.
Mam is also a victim to poverty’s dark unmerciful wrath. She has gone through tremendous amounts of pain and agony from the death of her own child, through cries of hunger form her children, to illness and financial difficulties. Mam is a lifeless and dull spirit by the end of the memoir. Not only does she believe to be a failure financially and as a Mother, but she was also rejected socially. “ Angelina was nothing but a rabbit, and they wanted nothing to do with her” (McCourt,19).
Frank is so upset with his mother by her way she cared them. Even to the fact where this quote becomes irony: “Love her as in childhood, though feeble, old and grey. For you’ll never miss a mother’s love, till she’s buried beneath the clay” (McCourt, 14). Frank becomes so upset with his mother that he becomes drunk and yells at her brutally. “ I’ll talk to you any way I like… I slap her on the cheek so that tears jump in her eyes” (341). Poverty within the family can tumultuously tear apart a family, to the point where even relationships and sociality becomes swallowed by the affects of poverty. Both parents lost all of their vigor for life and truly became lifeless lumps of what used to be people. They are two very defeated parents taxed by the affects of impoverished life. Both of them felt like failures to the point where they could not give their children proper lives. Not only could they not financially provide for their children, but they also embedded horrific traumatic memories and actions that scarred their lives forever. Seeing their father wasted, their mother depressed and crying, the sickness and death spewing all around them; these are all highly traumatic situations that these poor children had to endure.
Benjamin Franklin’s quote relates to Angela’s Ashes because poverty truly did shear the life and spirit out of the entire family. If one takes the perspective of the Father, the reader will see that he probably thought he was a failure of a man. That he was a waste of life because he couldn’t even take care of his own family, and he took to drink to escape the best he could from reality. If only he knew when he drank, he hurt his family more. When he was trying to escape life, he was trying to escape his very family. Poverty stripped the Father of all his pride and spirit. It exposed him to weakness, to liquor, which weakens a man more. Liquor is for hopeless men, and poverty drove Father to drink wildly.
The mother as well suffered tremendously. This poor woman lost her beloved daughter from illness, and felt socially rejected by everyone around her. She had to see her children cry of hunger, of coldness, and of illness. Mother also had to see her own children she brought into the world suffer. That will drive any woman to the brink of heartbreak and nervous breakdown. She was physiologically damaged by the traumatic affects of her life. On the account of these traumas, she became a depressant and neglecting of her children’s needs. Poverty also deprived the mother of her spirit and her motherliness qualities because she lacked in their care. Poverty turned both parents into empty- shelled human beings with absolutely no desire to live or thrive.
The affect of the empty bag means that there’s absolutely nothing left within the soul of a person stricken by poverty. It is affirmative that both parents lost their heart, spirit, and love of life, but with struggles like the ones Ma and Pa endured, most people would have also become empty- shelled beings.
Poverty truly does have the affect of stripping pride, spirit, and happiness fro the heart of man.
Man is such a delicate being that can be stripped from the love of life through the brutality of poverty. Once a human is stripped of love, pride, happiness, and spirit, what is truly left to weigh a person down? What is truly left of a person deprived of their love for life? Nothing exists anymore. The person becomes weightless, comparable to an empty paper bag stripped of its inner components: love, life, and happiness. These empty paper bags fall, fall straight to the ground. And these empty bags were once beautiful people that at one time did stand.

Monday, September 8, 2008

Blessed are those who mourn.
They will be comforted.
Matthew 5:4 God’s Word

The novel Extremely Loud And Incredibly Close is a heart- warming tale that speaks of strength regarding the human ability of healing. This gift of strength is portrayed in the novel by showing emotion freely to its entirety to other characters. This portrayal of emotion promotes patching of emotional scars and hurt that accumulates in the human heart. This type of emotional expression is crying. Through interaction and time spent together, the characters also find healing power through the power of touch. Extremely Loud And Incredibly Close uses both touch and emotional release to heal the scars of the past of both themselves and each other.
In the title we see the words “Extremely Loud”. Foer used this particular word choice because of the importance of emotion and emotional healing in his novel. Crying is a unique ability of emotional release due to pain that human beings use as an expression and as an escape route to their sorrows.
All of our main players associate with each other through the act of crying. “ It looked almost like she had been crying”(100). This passage came from the thoughts of Oskar regarding his Grandmother. His Grandmother has dealt with tremendous amounts of emotional trauma, and she cries a lot because of the loss of her son in the Twin Towers tragedy as well as the man who she loves who left her. The Grandmother is also barren of the fruits of her desires. She was left empty of the pleasures of marriage and the fires of her desire. She was left deprived of human touch and emotional bondage through the power of love.
We even have an instance where two unrelated characters cry. Mrs. Black cries to Oskar when he asks about her love of elephants. On page ninety- five there is a picture of a crying elephant. Oskar over time heals this woman who is suffering her denial to study elephants because she is merely a novice. We also see the Mother cry tears to her own son. Through the actions of crying the mother hides nothing back from Oskar, and it shows Oskar that it is ok to cry because she does as well. “ I cry a lot too, you know… I was never mad at you… just hurt” (172). This comment was said by Mother to her son when he tells her it is wrong to love again and that she must not miss her husband if she loves again. Oskar makes a huge dynamic change at the end of the book where he tells his mother that it is ok if she finds her comfort through Ron.
At last we finally see men cry, a powerful movement in life as well as novels. Tears shed represent strength to any man that is strong enough to cry. Even Jesus wept, and his tears represented the strength of his heart and his power to love. The action of crying is a healing tool that a hurt being uses in front of another, and that relationship creates a system of healing and understanding that alleviates all the pains within. “ He hid his face in the covers of his daybook, as if the covers were his hands. He cried” (180). This passage is the Grandpa and the Grandma together. The Grandmother wants to feel the pain from her husband, and she wants to alleviate it. She doesn’t want him to hide his pain from her. “Let me see you cry.” (180). He uncovers his face and she watches him cry. Through all of the weeping in this book, there is healing. Characters begin to listen to one another and help one another. The Black families come together and are individually affected by Oskar’s actions. Each Black truly finds meaning through Oskar’s journey of finding this key. The Grandmother and Grandfather heal each other by coming together as a union out of physical touch. They feel the power of love and experience something that they never have before. Mother finds relief through her family, and acceptance through her son.
All of these moments of crying must have been Extremely Loud, and that is why the wording is written as it is in Foer’s novel. Through loud sobs, gasps, and teardrops, there was meaning and healing in every bout of weeping from each individual character.
The importance of Incredibly Close and the graphic of the hand represent the power of touch as the key of healing. Oskar is a precocious young boy, and I believe his sexuality is more advanced than most boys of his age. This is proven because of Oskar’s comments of being close to women at times. “ Our faces were so incredibly close” (97). Oskar is talking about when visiting the beautiful Mrs. Black, whom he finds her attractive. I think he tries to use his sexuality to find healing and comfort. “ Could we kiss for a little bit?”( 99). Oskar gets so wrapped up in his sexuality that he forgets he doesn’t realize that is not proper to ask, especially to an older woman.
The reason why Oskar wants to be incredibly close is because through touch he finds healing. It is human nature that even at birth we use touch as an intimate source of healing. Oskar is so battered by emotional strain that he craves for understanding, and his understanding is through touch. I also believe Oskar has jealousy that his mother has Ron to touch her and heal her, and I believe he wants that too, but doesn’t have it. That is why I believe he opposes her relationship with him at first.
The power of touch has indescribable abilities. Touch is a sensory system that powers passion, love, healing, and comfort. There are many types of touch. The Grandparents also have an impact on touch. The relationship at first between them was not Agape love, but through Eros, or desirous lust. They never intimately touched each other, and their act of love was not passionate and love driven, but rather just for the peak in the end. This upset the Grandmother extremely. She wanted to feel the man she conceived a child with on top of her, to feel, to touch, for him to touch her. And they never had that. They never found love. Until at the end did the old Grandfather become one with her, and lay his weight on her. He gave her something that allowed her to truly find love, and heal her broken heart. “Touching him was always so important to me. It was something I lived for” (181). Another pair of hearts healed.
The symbol of the hand represents the symbol of touch: a hand. The hand symbolizes the ability of reaching out to the hearts of others. The hand has the most sensors in the body. This means that the hand feels the greatest amount of feeling compared to any other body part. The hand represents the coming together of the Grandparents, the relationship with Ron and Mom, and Oskar’s hand reaching out to every single one of them, and touching not just one other character, but to everyone he has affected through his journey.
The hand on the cover also represented something far deeper in a religious perspective. The symbol of the hand on the cover is the religious sign of Jainism, a religious practic in India. This religion is branched from Brahminism and Buddhism, and it started from the Jinas or "those who overcame". The practice of Jainism originated during the pre -Christian times where religious tension was high between people. Jainism is still practiced in India with roughly 4 million people. The beliefs of Jainism are that they must live in absolute harmony with nature. Many Jainists will not eat meat because they believe that all nature has the same importance level as humans posess. They treat nature meticulously and gently, and they do not hurt or kill nature. These Jainists believe that souls of humans are inside the animals, and they must not harm the creatures around them. The way Oskar helps everyone around him is a symbol towards Jainism, and he seems like a harmless, innocent, and caring person, like a Jainist.Oskar also doesn't believe in an afterlife, or that his father rests in heaven. He believe his father is a bunch of cells scattered everywhere. No,this isn't a coincidence, it is truly that Oskar is posessing Jainist beliefs.

In Extremely Loud And Incredibly Close one can truly find the power of the art of healing. In this novel through tear shed and touch, hearts have been bounded or impacted by the power of love that one small boy has for his family and community. Readers also can embellish on a religious journey with Oskar and trace his odd un Christian beliefs to his own practice: Jainism. Oskar, in his search for truth, found life- long lessons of love, and how he can find true love, even if not through passion or desire, but through friendship.

“ God does not comfort us to make us comfortable, but to make us comforters.” John Henry Jowett